Constant Run..........Constantly thinking of what life would be if things were different buy WHY???///

oHH mind, why do I keep thinking of things that are not dere, things that I don't have...can those things promise that I will be more happy, more successful, more rich????? Will those end up in any of these and most importantly will that mean my mind will be at peace....our mind is constanly on a run, run  to no where and anywhere...what is happiness afterall, are we really after happiness that comes from inside or are we taking about happiness we thinking can be bought, when we think of things that can maks us happy, we don't realize that happiness in a state of mind, peace at mind, love in da heart...it is everything else other than money n more money, isn't it??...I am not denying the fact that we all need money but are we really after what we need, most of the time we are running after things that we "Want" , these things are not what we "Need", how much and how long we will be running after the superficial things, things that can never guarantee that we will be content after a while, we will be happier than ever....... This constant run to achieve more n more will never stop, today what you have, ull forget to enjoy it coz again ull be running after something else, something that you think is bigger than what you have today, so when exactly do you think you will stop and say - hey I think I am done running now, the fact is there is very little or lets just say no chance that you will ever stop until its too late ....will those things really define us, will those really define "me", I am just what I wear and all that I have...things are defining us, how funny? wen we should be defining them...thats how the world has changed and shaped into a strange place to live in...Deep inside we all know the truth, the reality but still we keep running until we die and gone forever...so what did we finally achieve after all this running, nothing but the money that din even accompany us wen we died, honestly there is little that we achieved but there is so much we eventually lost during those years...we lost time to build beautiful and loving relationships, relationships that are not money centric, relationships that love you for who you are rather than what you are....love that is priceless and can't be bought...we lost the journey called life, we never really walked through it as we were constantly running to NoWhere...........

I wish we can slow down and enjoy life with all that we have full heartedly and enjoy every bit in bit n pieces...sitting down during the last years of my life, I want to be happy looking at the years that are gone by and be at peace with myself..thats how I picture my life...full of love n happiness that is PRICELESS....

BeliEVE iN yOU..............

There are days wen you feel lonely, wen you feel no one understands you, no one knows wat you going thru...Such days will come n go in life, they are just phases, they will go off....Remember to stay strong and believe in you, coz you know you have it in YOU, self believe is the real power that can help you overcome wat seems to be impossible in that moment....Remember that is just a moment, this moment doesn't define you and your life but wat really will define you is how you deal with it and how well and how quickly you bring yourself together to fight against those odds.......life is beautiful, you need to see beyond the dark..........give time for life to shape itself, follow your passion and wen you are passionate about something you will always find way to do it.....Make a career, no one will then question your decisions, people will forget the past, people respond to wat they see.....People are like this n we can't change them, once you are settled no one will have the guts to say anything to you...just create a base for yourself and life and then pursue whatever you want......Make sure you know wat you doing rite now, make sure the decisions you are making for your life are well thought about if not completely rite.....................I believe in You, just focus and channelize your energy and talent in shaping our life and career for now, everything else will automatically fall in the rite direction....

...TimE oF my LIfe with My Love by Mah Side..........

Its Been really long ...been a lot ...been so long that i think and wonder if i can write anymore................

Has the writer in me been so busy or have i been so occupied with things that this is no more part of me......why sucha big breakkkkkkk? why and i am trying to find a reason to it....life has changed...it was differnt then and it is different now..but memories and experiences are still da same.........i guess the reason i have written so much then is because i had so much then to write about..so many multiple ideas running at the same time..i guess that time was the year wen i was trying to know me which i am doing even now but then there was so much to explore, which has now slowed down....it was a fast learning curve..learning road......it is the time wen u have to prove it to all and that too at the same time...have to be balancing wat not..studies, career, youth, expectations, mood swings, love , family, friendship...alll at the same time....wen i say that i dont mean that i dont have to do all that now, but just that i don't have to prove it to anyone now...iam settled, happily married, have a career and have made everyone else proud...today is the day wen everyone else look up to me and they can not question me because i have proved myself family in all aspects and that gives me time to relax..time to slow down and time to just enjoy everything else.... may be thta is why i dont write that often because the life has changed its pace...there is not lott going on and what is going on is all that i would have ever wanted and dreamt of..this is one of the best times and phase of my life......and i am loving it to the fullest.........Marriage brings with it so much more of happiness, peace and love that it gives you the time to just cherish it and brings peace to your mind........and i think this is the phase that i am in and thisw is where i always wanted to be.....so much have grown over the years..the bond of love, the bond of frienship...everything...wat remains now is what should have always been with me and that is the reason it is still there with me............................its all destiny or i must say the result of the choices that i have made over these years...................

Stay blessed and love u all :)

...If I...........

If I hold da candle will my hands burn...........

or will the darkness in my life fade?

If i hold the water in my fist, wiill it slip away,

or will it clean da soul away.........

.........................Today sittin here.................

i think of things dat never cud n wud have come to my mind..

these are those small tiny things which we dont think off...for our time is valuable n we know they aint worth it...so y today out of nowhere Iam reminded of these memories..i don't know if i cherish them but all i know it makes me smile ,if not lauf .....dats wat matters....these things need not be big to be there in my mind and memories but they shud be dere like those days which I wont mind living up all over again n again and still not getting bored...........

...JuSt LeT iT Go..........!

Even though you show da world dat u have moved on but then y does it still hurts and makes u cry, y does it become so difficult to get over it...to me the reason is,u have never let go off it and so da strings are still attached to us like da way umbical cord is to us wen we were born, the other reason is may be because you never had it so you feel da crave for it.....u know sometimes the thought and imagination of "wanting to have something so badly" is so strong that it overpowers anything and everything and thats wen our brain just shuts down and we block our senses without realizing that its just the " thot of it " dats driving us not "it" exactly..its just the instinct of it which is telling us we "want it"................................

However,sometimes ..not sumtymz but most of the time its like dis.....we train our minds to have something and all we can possibly think of den is to have that thing and most of the times wen we have that we realize we never really needed that.....it was just the fantasy that made us wanting to have that.................

:)

...LIFE after MarrIAGE...

...Life after Marriage....
Wow! how does this sound,well iam not sure how its gonna sound to you guys but for me its as great and awesome as it was den wen we were dating.......why is that people have different perceptions rader assumptions about life being changed and changed for not something better rader worse...........who said that people cant be insanly in love once they get married! Yes , ofcorce they can be only if they welcome and enjoy this changing phase of life...we have to embrace the change...think of life wen THERE ARE NO different PHASES......no teenage, no adulthood ,no old age, wont that be so boring.......yes,it will be no matter how much we yell about getting and becoming adults and complain bout the golden days of childhood, the innocence and care free attitude den ...... u wont have liked if you wud have jusst remained as a child always and wud have never grown ......................that is how life is, full of changes.... but every phase brings with it happiness and joy..no phase can take away the happiness,its we whu give up on being happy for the simple reason that we don't want to be happy and we dont want to change........if we wont change how will we give the space for something new to enter our lifes...HOw.......????
Marriages - dont change our lifes for bad n worse, its we who change the look of marriage because we fail, we fail to change, we fail to give our best, we fail to understand ,we fail and forget that happiness is a state of mind more den a state of matter........
nothing can ever change the love because if ever it existed ,it will last else it will fleet but its not in the nature of love to leave and walk away..its meant to last and last for ever...dats da beauty of love.....and dats wat love is.......holding on two souls as if tehy are juss one.............!!!


@Anuj : i love u so much...........!

..ALL I WANT IS...........

All i wana do is?

nothing but just run to you..........being wid you is so much fun....its how you make me feel dat life seems so incomplete widout you.....its only you who would love me even wen i shouts at you...........its only you who would never ever want da tears to come in my eyes...its only you who would care if iam sad..its only you who would love me always like never before..its only you who can make me write dis crazy Say.............