...Thats how Life is..................

If I walk would you run

If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me

If I ask you to stay would you show me the way

Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me

The world is catching up to you while your running away to chase your dream

Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change

and maybe im not ready but

im trying for your love

I can hide up above

I will try for your love

we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing a longor

wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull

if I give you my heart would you just play the part

or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful

am I catching up to you while your running away , to chase your dreams,

its time for us to face the truth

cause we are coming to each other to change

and maybe im not ready.............

INTERESTING LYRICS......

high school love affair....

Thats how most of people at this tender age would feel about love,

feel about the complexity that love holds,

during this time love shapes into something very strange,

you would want to go out of your way for love

even when you know thats not how it should have been

but thats all for love

and thats how one console oneself....

how over the years the definition of love has changed

it has evolved with every passing phase of life,

Its then when you realize that inspite of changing yourself ....

its more important to accept each other as you are,

Acceptance is what love demands not the "change"

.......love is what will last....

...today ,tomorrow and years to come...........

nothing lasts forever except "love"

because nothing can "bind hearts together" like love does...........

CHEERS TO EVERLASTING LOVE............

...Tired of being here...........

Iam tired of being here,
Iam tired of being chained,
Its not the place where i belong,
I miss my people,
I miss my land
but for now this is Gods plan,
waiting to be out of here,
Iam looking for some crazy fair...
I know i will miss somethings inspite of being out of here
but thats the part and parcel of life,
the happiness of being out is more then the sadness of missing
but in the memories i have all this alive as a different phase of my life..........

...i have been....

i have been alone,
i have been there for so long,
i have seen the oceanz ,
seen the rains and seen the darkness of my life ,
with all that iam stilll here wanting to live this life....da shades of grey and white are stories of yesteryears...today i want to forget it all and start a new day with you.....its only for you that i have started loving the world around , loving that love still stay and hey baby you are mine and thats all i need to be fine.....nothing tastes like your lips, nothing feels like your touch, its you baby i wana be with...........

..waht is it ????

what is it that will make sure that i live and live happily as long as iam there?why is it so hard to say it in one go? is it because we aint sure or is it one thing is just "not enough"....wahtever might be the case but one thing is true for sure and that is we ourself don't know waht we want and wat exactly we need.......haven't we complicated our lifes for no substancial reason, haven't we lost the track of all those little things which do have the potential to make anyone happy, haven't we lost on " the real me" ......... we have mixed the two roles so much that they have lost their identity & individuality......today my real self looks almost the twin of my projection or rather i should say its my projection that has overshadowed the 'real me' .. i have forgot to understand that they are different entities ......isn't that so ironic that i have lost "who Am I "just to become " what am i"? when it should have been the other way round................................... who am I & wat am I should have been blended perfectly to make them look alike, make them look like "superimposable images of each other ".... But today wat am I has been more dominant then who am I, so much so that we have almost forgotten our "real self".......there is nothing we can relate yet we think its ok as long as iam visible .......... noboby cares to answer who they want want to be ,all that they are worried about is what they want to be ................ success doesn't come by giving up wat matters but it comes when you move ahead with everthing that actually matters............ purpose of existence have changed into just "being there".................

will continue with the same topic..till den keep : )

.......your love.........

life has become more beautiful because of the colors added by you,
the shades of DARKNESS have almost vanished, the sad notes are no longer playing in my mind, your love has tunned me with rythum and dance of life,
iam no longer sitting in dark ,
hiding away from my own self,
now i sleep to see the bright light and stare at the moonlight,
iam not scared of the waves and the winds,
i now face the water to experience the other side,
now that i know you are there with me
i feel i have found the real reason to smile........

...WalKing iN tHe Rain.......

when i walk in the rain, i can feel the the water, i can smell the soil,in that moment of time i realize how far have i come,

how far i have been from myself,those stupid things we used to do when we were kids , now are the things of past,why have i grown so fast to have lost the meaning of innocent pride.....

those days were so different, we could wake up to careless mornings,we could laugh because of little things.... now its all the way so different...the days are no longer peaceful, the nights are now sleepless...the dreams that i had once dreamt have changed into something UNachievable..........why have the things changed so fast or is it me who have not catch with time...is it me or is it the world that is not fine.................can't the things be as they used to be then? or are the things still same and its me who has changed...........i think its the price you pay to have become little wise .....................

...The dreamz are but dreamz..........

Sometimes in life we want things so badly but then something happens and you no longer want that thing...why that happens i still don't know but thats how it happens.......... sometimes i feel we shouldnt want something so much so dat if we dont get it we feel heart broken , rather shouldn't expect anything from anyone, it hurts if your expectations never turn into the kind of reality you wanted................. because someone failed you,you will be sad ? whats the point of being sad ,its not reason worth being sad ......so one should expect but from only oneself, it wont really hurt that much ,it will surely hurt far less then the pain of being dissappointed by others.... no expectations, no sadness...........thats the way to live a happy life : )

...I KnoW hOw stupid Iam........

I know how stupid i have been acting lately , i know i have been a very different person altogether , i know for no good reason i have been complicating things.....why i been doing all this ? thats something that i have failed to understand but despite all these odds i wanna tell you that i have loved you and missed you every moment of that crazy time..... its only you and you i think of , even when iam awake i dream about you and the life we would have.............. iam sorry for all that time wen i was rude with you but trust me i don't want to do that to you but sometimes life becomes so complex ,so hard , that i loose my mind....and i loose it on you ,may be because i know even wen iam at my worst you will still love me no less , you will still have your arms open and welcoming me ,its your love that has made me act like a spoilt kid and i have begun enjoying all this pampering so much so that now i have started creating fictional situations to get all that attention of yours................but baby i have decided not to do it ny more because i myself cant relate to the person i have become lately , i dont want to create situations of tension , unhappiness between us , i dont want it coz i dont want you to be sad even for the fractions of seconds when we talk ............for every moment that we have means a lot and i dont wana loose it................. you have been always there for me ,you have always loved me even wen i have deserved it da least...................... i love you baby ,and i know our life is as perfect as it can get and i do'nt need to complicate it for no reason.........all i know is i have always loved you , i love u and i will always do...............................

everytime i think of you ,i feel how blessed iam,
how beautiful you have made my life , how complete have i become after knowing you, derz something about you that tells me you will always love me , even when the tough times will come ill overcome it because the strenght of our love is far stronger than the difficulties of life.............

...I FEEL pity for YOU..........

This is a story about a gal, who thinks she has all that one should have, she feels she is the best ,she thinks she is someone everyone would want to be but nobody can........ : )
But ironically that is wat she thinks & no one believes... afterall who would want to be a sad , murky and dead .............gal, when i look at you i feel pity because to me your live appears to be as dead and meaningless as it can get....... all your life you have RUN after materialistic things, all your life you have tried to make the life of others as hard and bad as possible, all your life you have been trying to be who you are not.................. sadly you have even forgotten to laugh with joy, even forgotten how to be happy ..... you have so much of negativity around you that people who happens to come around you also becomes unhappy and as dead as you are.............you do'nt even realize how selfish, how insecure you are...yes you are insecure of lot many things in your life may be because da little things that you have wont be with you for long and you know this harsh reality, these people wont be with you because they know one day you can back stab them and afterall why would anyone want to be with a creepy person like you..........you have never respected and cherished the love you had, never cared about other's feelings , you have made relationships to serve your bad intentions and one day all this will come back to you.....24*7 you think of how to make the life of others unhappy.............. can't you find a better reason to live BITCH ??????? OR THIS IS THE ONLY REASON YOU LIVING FOR??????? wats your life , a life with no life, no happiness .......... you know how sad and unhappy you are from within and how weak you are but still you keep pretending and fake it all...................... i feel pity because one day you will loose eveything and just you and your useless pride will be left, with this kind of wrong attitude you will probably have everthing that doesn't reaaly matter and and you will surely loose everything that actually do ............... i feel sorry for you,looking at your life my heart becomes heavy , AFTERALL how can someone live a life like yours....its so SAD , SO DEPRESSING......... THINK ABOUT IT...........slow down for a while and put that mask away for everyone know that YOU ARE NOT WAT YOU SHOW AND WAT YOU ARE IS EVEN WORSE THEN THAT.........................GET A LIFE, get a better purpose to live.......else who would bother to care even if you die..........because you are already so dead and rotten............

and last but not da least : DO'NT SHOW ME ATTITUDE BITCH , I GOT MORE THaN YOU....................

..If I HaVE tO.....

If I have to leave this world,
I want to leave it in your arms,

If I have to see you walk away,

I would want you to shut my eyes,

If I have to smile,

I would want to have you by my side,

If I want to cry,

I would want you holding my tears,

If I have to dance,

I want you close to my heart,

If I have to live,

I want you forever in my life...

for I love you so much that there is nothing,

I want to do if I do'nt have you..............

..THe moMENT HaS CoMe........

The moment has come when we will be together forever, just in a little while things will happen which once were just like dreams, dreams we wished would turn into reality and would come true ,and here they are, right in front of us....everything is exactly the way we wanted it to be........ but iam little nervous at the same time, so many thoughts are running in my mind.........i can't believe that it is actually happening......iam loving this feeling, the thought that we will be together is making me insane...its like the thing that I ever wanted so badly is there for me and I didn't have to struggle to get it........may be thats what God has planned for me, may be that was destined to happen.......................WATEVER it may be all i know is Iam happy ,you are happy and our family is happy................... love u baby!!!!! mmuahh

..fOR mY sPeCIal oNeS........

OOps! am i actually talking about the ones...can u guess? chalo leave it , i will tell you who am i talking about...well its none other then my" friends", they have been my strength when the time was not right and when i had no one else to share my deepest of feelings.......i have had the best of times with them.....we have cried together, we have laughed ,we have lived our life like a "celebration"................ its hard to put everything in words because its the matter of emotions which are best expressed when felt.............time has strengthen our relation... time has taught me how complete my life is because of them...i love u all not because u have always been there but because even when we were far i always had u guys..dats the power of our friendship...wat can be more beautiful then this , for this is also a form of love and love is always pure, beautiful and sweet, and if its not it just can't be love...............love also means having arguements, sometimes cold ones and sometimes steamy ones, but then it never means walking away and leaving. All it means is that i can be myself when IAM around my loved ones, so i say what i want to, say what i feel and not care about anything,for they never judge ,nor evaluate what i say because they know me ,the real me.....they know that we are friends not because we have so much in common but because we " respect the differences "that we have ...... its not about putting and forcing ones ideas ,its like giving the next person the liberty and freedom to think how one wants to and not how one should and how we want them to............................most of the relations that sustain ,don't sustain because the people involved are similiar in terms of their thinking but because they never give up on each other despite the "odds"......... so respect each other ,respect the individuality ,for everyone is unique in its own way and nobody wants to loose this uniqueness and become "THE SAME".....................

........HAs bEEn a LITTLe loNg...........

How do i start , emm don't really knoe that but what i know for sure is that it has been a little long since i wrote something for my blog...... what can be the reason ? well to start up with, figuring out why i didn't write is quite easy ..all i know is i wasnt having something concrete ,something solid to talk about and may be right now also i may not be having but all i know is that i still wanna write....sTupid isn't it? but thats what drives me, i don't have to be wise to do things that i love, all that i need is the passion....life becomes easy when we look at things as they are and not complicating everything that we see around us.......its not the world that has become complex,its the thoughts that runs in the minds of millions of us.........we have started thinking so much that the time has come when we have even forgotten what exactly we were meant to think about...... what are we rushing for? what is that we are continuously chasing? if we pause for a moment we will find that everything is just right here, it has been always right HERE but we were too blind to see...for a couple of seconds lets be in the moment, the present moment, where everything is perfect, everything is exactly the way it should have been...doesn't the very thought calms us down.....its not because it made things perfect its because for a moment we were at peace with ourselves ,we were not rushing.............................................to be happy its not important to have what everybody else may desire, to be happy its important to be at peace with oneself...................

God bless us all !!!

you are....my man..........

you have been like a man of my dreams, you are like a dream come true, how can you be so sweet and patient to listen to all my harsh words, i have never seen you complaining, never seen you loozing your mind over me, sometimes i find it difficult to believe that there can be person like you who has infinte amount of patience and never ending love for me, when i deserve your love the least u still have loved me like u always did, i know even if i go on a search i can never find the one like you, you handle my emotions in a perfect way and wen i say perfect it actually means " the perfect way"............ its like a fairy tale to have found someone like you, someone who loves me and whoz love is unconditional and pure like aa first drop of rain , untouched by the winds of change............................ i love you, i know i have been impossible at times but i know you know even when i say all those words , i dont mean a smallest bit of it, when i say all that i believe you know that it does hurt me.................... i love u & WRITING IT ALL OUT OF LOVE........................

.........Havn't I..........

Havn't i cried enough,
havn't my tears gone unnecessarily drained,
havn't i lost enough of my mind,
havn't i cared a lot to deserve this pride,
havn't i been a little less of me,
havn't i been a more of different being,
havn't i had enough of fights,
how havn't i been even a bit right,
havn't i loved enough, to actually have felt & written something of this kind.....
i wanna break free,
i wanna get rid of all emotions which usually run in my mind,
i wanna be tuff and strong like a wall, rigid & tough and not moved easily..
. i will die & my feelings will be dug along
but before that let me cry for the last time....
before i say goodbye to these tears ,
i will fight all my fears ,
i will say goodbye to you my love ,
for with you i can never be rough,
i can never be strong like iron ,
so let me burn my self
and let my emotions be blown like ashes
let me break free &
let me fly into an unknown field
where no one other than me will be seen...................

one day

one day you will be alone for i will be gone
even if you will look, there wont be a single trace of me..
I will leave you forever and you will no more find me
i will do it all for love
may be because i will set my love free from me
no more of being trapped in the deep mystery
i wont bother you anymore, you wont hear from me
wen i will be gone you will miss me
i will secretly love you even then,
will still dream of you but then i will never be with you....
from a distant i will think of you and me
but thinking of being near will be next to sin for me
your life will go on and so will i live
but whenever you will see your picture
you will find it to be incomplete without me
its the power of love, i will still be there in your mind...................
i will leave you not because i dont love you
but because i want to give you enough time to think of me.........
even when you have hectic days ,
you will still have time to miss me
i will leave because i dont want to be out of your mind at any time....
i know this will cost me
but there is no other way i can have 'you'

.... in da world of stupidity

world is a funny place to be in...
with a bunch of fools trying to make a mess out of it ,

they fight like kids and acts as if they are very big ,
with a brain of infants they act like saints,
some just show off their pepe jeans,

as if its armani or some heavy machine.

who the hell cares wat u are,

unless one gets some bak balance out of that...

so relax and breathe

and stop talkin the useless shit..........................

: )

love me..........

love is da sweetest feeling, the sweetest pain, the sweetest madness.........
has it not been for u then who for it could have been...,its your love that has changed the way i used to be...... iam not controlled by me any more, its your love that controls me all the time........i want to loose ,want to surrender in your love.......its you i think of all the time,its you i want to be with all the time but dont know why are things getting little tough, why is it so hard to make you understand, why kant the words convey what i really want........................its not how both of us want..... things are getting messed for no good reason, dont know why everything is not the way we both actually wants.........what i say u cant get it , what u say seems little harsh to me but i know its not how we wanted this love to be.....................no matter how many arguements we have, i know nothing can ever come in the way of our love........... i love the way you love me, i love the way you control me, i love it so much that i consciously or unconsciously do things to have your attention n love all around me........................................... i love you more then the words can ever say......i cant think of life widout you coz u are the one who completes it in endless ways, there is so much i want to tell you ,therez so much i wanaa here from you, therz so much to share with you............... if i have you in my life thers nothing i fear coz i know you are there with me ,to protect me, to love me ..........................and this love is my power and you are the reason i smile...................................................

....only for love.........

Iam feeling hi not coz iam drunk but its your love that acts like rum,
Iam feeling like iam flying ,its your love who has given me the wings,
its your love and its you who drives me nuts...........i love the little things you say,the little things you do because its you who makes me feel how beautiful my life is and how blessed iam to have you by me......... i just want to tell you that i love you so much that sometimes i am surprised how can i be so crazy about someone?.... : )

.............live it................

in this fast moving world, we often forget to live life, we forget to laugh , we forget to be a child..........as we grow we are told not to laugh aloud ,not to act like a kid,and always hide the true emotions and project the fake ones.......strangely 24*7 we are told not to be ourself and to be someone we are expected to be...........in dat attempt we forget who we really are................our mind continuously think of pleasing the world around , are mind is not free, there are so many thoughts running.........we just don't have the time to sit and think where our life is actually moving.....we are blindly going where the life is taking us without questioning the very fact that is it the road we REALLY need to tread ?????? how many years of our life has gone in vain, we have never bothered to ask this .......coz we never had time for ourself.....it has raped our right to be 'us'.......... it has snatched away the innocence and peace of mind from us.......we are no more ourself ,we are just puppets waiting to be directed........its not me who decides my fate, my destiny because i dont do things as i want rather i do them as others want................. but when something goes wrong its me and only me who face it all alone...........for anything good that happens its because of them and when nothing goes right its all because of me............................... so strange.................. its my life ,and i should live it the way i want, if thats so hard to do , then what am I living for...... so wake up!! and take the responsibility in your hand , don't be puppet ...........its your life so live it for yourself...........................

...wats the matter.......

I don't know but iam scared of something,
this feeling is strange, its making me uneasy........

weird thoughts run in my mind....
even think what is not required at all...

i have become someone i never was
its so disgusting to be in a phase u never want...

i react on impulse,i go crazy over little things,
trust me i don wana hurt,

i love you and i trust you,
but these days its little rough,

there is so much pressure on me,
i cant sleep peacefully at night..

i know i should not be scared
for you are always there to take care of me

but still i fear not because i dont trust you
may be because its so sudden and m so unprepared
and finally that moment has come,

my life is about to change forever
and its not so simple stuff...................

i dont want to behave the way i do
but now i have become so used to......

even if i try i cant stop,
but i dont do it just for fun.........

i love you and love u a lot
its because of you that i have become NUTS.............

: )

LOVE YOU JAAN

.....what happens wen.............

..........What happens when the one you love leaves and leaves you forever, Iam sure the very thought might have given you shivers by now & YOU HAVE EVERY REASON TO FEEL THIS ........how can life one day just take away the person we love and love so much...we often feel being cheated and defeated by life, we just cant accept that something like that has happened to us ,may be because we are scared to imagine our life without them...it has never been easy and will never be easy to move on loosing someone soo dear during the journey of life..........no matter how much you cry,no matter how much you beg but things and people lost on the way will never be back again............all that remains with us are memories of past........... life has to move on and we learn to live without all that we are left with when we realise that even that will be lost one day.....death is the ultimate truth, we might be able to fight against anything and everything but we can never win over death, when we understand this life becomes easy because now the death doesn't scare us any longer as we have accepted it as a part of our whole cycle of existence and as a part of whole process............this acceptance helps us to live without fear & helps us to live life in peace with ourself..........nobody leaves us because love never dies........it remains in the memories ,remains in our mind clear as if its a thing of yesterday..................its that love only that gives us the strength that we move on with life, isn't it........ the pain will be there but with time it will start fading away and won't hurt us that much.....................

being in love with you.................

.....................................Being in love with you is so much fun, its like living & feeling every emotion,it has been so wonderful,it has been the best so far......i have changed as a person, and changed for good......your love has given me more then i could have ever asked for ,the little ways you care,the simple words you say has touched my soul.....your love is my power ,my strength and the assurance of the fact that i will be loved and loved endlessly by you....no matter how crazy i go but you are there to love me, you are there to understand, you are there to share my pain as much as you want to share my happiness.......i know wat perfect love is and i know its exactly wat we share.........i have been stupid many times but even then you have had all the patience in the world to listen and bear me.........even if i go on a search i know i will never be able to find somebody who can love me the way you do...your love is so pure,its so beautiful and not bounded by conditions.........you have loved me for who iam, as iam and this feeling of acceptance is so very close to my heart........................ if i have YOU in my life therez nothing that i will ever want , for you are the ONE i ever wanted................being in your arms i forget all the worries of life for i know you are there to protect and take care of me, i know you are there just for me.............i always wanted to rise in love for a man and you are my MAN.................

..wat do you need in life.........

Many aa times we are asked what is that we want in life,in the spur of moment are mind wander to aa distant land ,a land of endless dreams...........there are so many things we want in life but how many of them we actually NEED we ourself don't know.....it has been like this- 'the more you have ,the better it is ',how strange??? why u want more if little is what will actually matter at the end of the day........ i don't know what others want but iam sure of what i want and what i need in life........................
,to begin with I WANT TO BE HAPPY, and trust me its not a big deal, happiness doesn't cost much, little things can make u happy you don't need to be rich to be happy.........you dont need to be PERFECT to be happy........ wats perfection actually? to me perfection IS ALL ABOUT RESPECTING THE IMPERFECTION IN YOU.......... yes its about accepting ourself and accepting the fact that no matter how hard you try you wont and cant satisfy the expectations of people around you..........i don't even see point in living life on terms of others,it doesn't mean i do'nt care about them it just mean i want to care for them by BEING 'ME' AND not by what they want me to be... i will change if i feel i should and not because some one else doesn't like the way iam.......... everyone is different and we need to respect the individuality and uniqueness of evryone....... .. i have learnt the less you expect the more happy you are because when you expect your mind is continuously thinking of the moment which is not there and so u forget to relish the present moment............... ironic isn't it.....? to me happiness means having a family, having my loved ones around me ,thats precious to me.........MONEY is important but not THEE MOST IMPORTANT thing,it matters to a certain extend but beyond that it doesn't hold any value in my life, money cant buy me true love and peace of mind..................................... i want to have a home not a house and homes are built with love and affection and not by bricks and walls.............to me success is not about reaching the top most position, to me success is living my life with the people i love and value,even if it means giving up materialistic stuff or correctly calling it as materialistic success ( success= suck in excess : ) ) ...thats how i feel ,iam not saying others are wrong, but that doesnt give me a reason to agree to how they feel..................i respect their vision of life but i dont give them any right to raise fingers on how i feel about life and how i perceive happiness........................... at the end of the day i have my peace of mind and thats more than enough...............................

......2009 is finaly 'IN'...........

So 2009 is finaly 'in' and 2008 out for ever n always.....LOOKING BACK AT 2008 there are memories filled with all the varied emotions......some itching till today n some sweet like da old wine ,just getting better and better with time....years have been passing n we are getting older with each day but still we celebrate and welcome each year with open arms...may in the hope that things will get better this time......hasnt the HOPE cheated us so many times ,havent our dreams just broken in front of our eyes so many times yet we BELIEVE.....how ironic........ when things doesnt turn the way we want we feel its better to give the control to something else 'our mind' and HOPE which MAKES THINGS BETTER FOR THAT MOMENT OF TIME............and i dont see therez any harm in that,if something kan help u to be sane wen everything else is making you inane then why not : )

well but its not always that we will be dissappointed by life ,its just that we just remember the bad that happens to us but we dont count the good that happens...its a human nature...if u look on your life in 2008 iam sure the life would have given you more than wat it has taken yet we crib n complain......we always want to be satisfied and we forget satisfaction is all in your perception of life..its a relative term n if you want to be content you need to draw a line where it ends, if there is no stopping then you can and will never be satisfied....... its all in the mind....so play with mind rather your mind playing on you......think!!!!!!!!!!!!