...TimE oF my LIfe with My Love by Mah Side..........

Its Been really long ...been a lot ...been so long that i think and wonder if i can write anymore................

Has the writer in me been so busy or have i been so occupied with things that this is no more part of me......why sucha big breakkkkkkk? why and i am trying to find a reason to it....life has changed...it was differnt then and it is different now..but memories and experiences are still da same.........i guess the reason i have written so much then is because i had so much then to write about..so many multiple ideas running at the same time..i guess that time was the year wen i was trying to know me which i am doing even now but then there was so much to explore, which has now slowed down....it was a fast learning curve..learning road......it is the time wen u have to prove it to all and that too at the same time...have to be balancing wat not..studies, career, youth, expectations, mood swings, love , family, friendship...alll at the same time....wen i say that i dont mean that i dont have to do all that now, but just that i don't have to prove it to anyone now...iam settled, happily married, have a career and have made everyone else proud...today is the day wen everyone else look up to me and they can not question me because i have proved myself family in all aspects and that gives me time to relax..time to slow down and time to just enjoy everything else.... may be thta is why i dont write that often because the life has changed its pace...there is not lott going on and what is going on is all that i would have ever wanted and dreamt of..this is one of the best times and phase of my life......and i am loving it to the fullest.........Marriage brings with it so much more of happiness, peace and love that it gives you the time to just cherish it and brings peace to your mind........and i think this is the phase that i am in and thisw is where i always wanted to be.....so much have grown over the years..the bond of love, the bond of frienship...everything...wat remains now is what should have always been with me and that is the reason it is still there with me............................its all destiny or i must say the result of the choices that i have made over these years...................

Stay blessed and love u all :)

...If I...........

If I hold da candle will my hands burn...........

or will the darkness in my life fade?

If i hold the water in my fist, wiill it slip away,

or will it clean da soul away.........

.........................Today sittin here.................

i think of things dat never cud n wud have come to my mind..

these are those small tiny things which we dont think off...for our time is valuable n we know they aint worth it...so y today out of nowhere Iam reminded of these memories..i don't know if i cherish them but all i know it makes me smile ,if not lauf .....dats wat matters....these things need not be big to be there in my mind and memories but they shud be dere like those days which I wont mind living up all over again n again and still not getting bored...........

...JuSt LeT iT Go..........!

Even though you show da world dat u have moved on but then y does it still hurts and makes u cry, y does it become so difficult to get over it...to me the reason is,u have never let go off it and so da strings are still attached to us like da way umbical cord is to us wen we were born, the other reason is may be because you never had it so you feel da crave for it.....u know sometimes the thought and imagination of "wanting to have something so badly" is so strong that it overpowers anything and everything and thats wen our brain just shuts down and we block our senses without realizing that its just the " thot of it " dats driving us not "it" exactly..its just the instinct of it which is telling us we "want it"................................

However,sometimes ..not sumtymz but most of the time its like dis.....we train our minds to have something and all we can possibly think of den is to have that thing and most of the times wen we have that we realize we never really needed that.....it was just the fantasy that made us wanting to have that.................

:)