..........I may not have........

I may not have written anything for you,
i may not have been talking enough with you..

....but at the back of my mind i always miss you..
i miss the little conversations we had,

i miss the fun i used to have,
we have grown now,

life seems realy busy
but still in the back of my mind,

i think of you,
those moments are so clear in front of me,

i kan never ever let them slip out of me...
years are passing by & time is almost fleeting,

at times the fear of loosing you comes all around me,
dat shadow takes da light away from me,

it scares ,it makes me little mean
but then no matter how far ,
i know even u will be also missing me..................

...story of a child.....

He was an innocent child born with a smile,he used to play & dance with joy,his parents thought their life got completed with him. He was their perfect son ,their only pride.They dreamt of a life but things got changed.....

.....now every moment dey fight,the world has made their son wild.The drugs got him entangled & he snuff it day & night.His life is now aliving hell,his parents now hardly feel they are alive,it changed their life & ruined everything they ever had........drug took away their child ,their love their life.........

......... now they dont want to live they simply want to die,life has made them helpless,they dont know what to do to make things alright,he was untouched with the reality,now he lives in a disturbed world,he cheat ,he borrow and he even steal for a drag,that made him what they never thought he would be,his mind no longer thinks normal,no longer feels,no longer understands that these drugs have destroyed him...........

........ he deserve to live alife but now he just love the darkness & world of illusion...he lives in a state of not being,always in pain......he is running hes insecure,it seems nothing can now cure..wish things will get alright, he will again be alive....for nobody deserves to be hated & treated thi s way by life.....who should be blamed for what he is going through, its not him,its not his parents nor the drugs that are widely sold.............BUT its the choice he made for his life.he chose to be where he is........ i really wish he could have made a wiser pick because the wrong choice has ruined everything inside of him...................

..LOVE ME.........................

Love me not just for the times we have been together,
love me not just for the smiles we shared during the way,

love me not just for the moment we felt close,
love me not just for those sleeples nights we had thinking each other,

love me even wen i will be far and not near,
love me even when i cant make you smile,

love me even when i say da harsh words,
love me even when nobody likes the way i look,

love me when i say you dont,
love me because thats what i need the most,

i may not be perfect,
i may not be the best gal,i may not be good
but iam not even bad,

but all i know is i love you
and i will always do.......

...........BEcause OF you.............

Its because of you that i know what love is,
its because of you that i know how perfect love can be,

its because of you,i can smile with my heart loud,
its because of you i can dance with crowd,

its because of you, i know how stupid i can be,
its because of you i know how incomplete my life can be

its because of you that i have known myself,
its because of you that i know how mad i can be.............

..I doNT kNOw............

I don't know wats love ,
but it cant be different from the way iam feeling for you,

it has to be love,
coz i never thougth of loving you,

but one day i just found myself in love with you,
it happened and how it happened i dont know,

now my world seems to be incomplete without you,
you mean the world to me

,i wake up thinking of you
and even in my dreams i jus think of you ,

you make me go mad,
you make me talk foolish

but derz nothing i can do
for i love you and i really do

,your words are magic
,your love feels great,

i feel you
and feel the love we share.....

....MeMOriES OF pASt.................

Memories of past are so clear in mah mind,
i can see myself crying and laughing at the same time,

those were the magical days,
they were unusual,

i used to be carefree,
i used to be like a freak,

jumping like a bird,
and figthing like a bee,

the tears were of joy,
the wounds were out of fun,

they used to heal fast,
they used to go fast,

now things have change,
nothing seems that way,

now the world bothers me,
now i feel the pain.....................

.sometymes.............

Some times thesky seems to be out of my reach,
sometimes i feel iam lgging behind,

sometimes i feel the winds of change,
sometimes i feel they will never be mine,

sometimes i feel the ocean of tears,
sometimes i feel iam drowing deep inside,

sometimes the pain kill me from within ,
sometimes i feel dead yet alive,

sometimes i smile to heal the wounds inside,
sometimes i laugh with no emotions outside,

sometimes i wana run to a deserted land,
sometimes i wana to fly high.......

...dATs thE wAY Iam........

pEople dont like me
and so do i,

i want to kill myself
and cry till i die,

i nailed myself
and burnt my veins

but still iam alive
for i love to be in pain

people say iam crazy
people say iam bad,

yeah dats me
and dats da way iam.....
: )

...........wen I.........

wEN I saw you for da first time,
i was too young and you were much younger,

wen i held your hand it felt nothing like ever,
wen i loved you ,i felt this love wil last forever,

you walked away with someone else and left me alone,
it felt like unfelt and made me numb,

when i woke up,i saw you were gone
but something inside of me told i have to move on,

do i have to cry for someone like you,
what makes you think i will be always waiting for you?

now iam happy and always gay,
your presence have now swayed away,

i can feel the heat,
i can feel the rain,

now i know am free
and free of the pain................

...sitting on the edge.............

Sitin on the edge of the cliff,m tryn to ask myself

Is it where I shud have been?

No matter wat I do,its happens to me,

betrayed in love and left in dark deep

Where have I gone wrong,I ask myself

Nothing I hear juss da sound of my tear

People have hurt me,& I have cried like hell

But nobody bothered to care for help.

It has been like this,It will be like dis

But I wish thingz cud change & I kud have died in peace

loving YOU...

Loving you have changed my life,
i have bekum nuts n little wize et the same time

knowing you i have known myself,
i can cry like a small baby over tiny stuff,

thinking of u makes me feel light,
even when the stress of life is high,

most of the time i dream of you,
it looks so perfect,its looks so right
n i know everything will be all right..

in your love i feel the unfelt
in your words i hear the beat of my heart,

only if you see you will know,
how much i love & how much i care for you

people will come,people will go,
but my love will forever go......