...The dreamz are but dreamz..........

Sometimes in life we want things so badly but then something happens and you no longer want that thing...why that happens i still don't know but thats how it happens.......... sometimes i feel we shouldnt want something so much so dat if we dont get it we feel heart broken , rather shouldn't expect anything from anyone, it hurts if your expectations never turn into the kind of reality you wanted................. because someone failed you,you will be sad ? whats the point of being sad ,its not reason worth being sad ......so one should expect but from only oneself, it wont really hurt that much ,it will surely hurt far less then the pain of being dissappointed by others.... no expectations, no sadness...........thats the way to live a happy life : )

...I KnoW hOw stupid Iam........

I know how stupid i have been acting lately , i know i have been a very different person altogether , i know for no good reason i have been complicating things.....why i been doing all this ? thats something that i have failed to understand but despite all these odds i wanna tell you that i have loved you and missed you every moment of that crazy time..... its only you and you i think of , even when iam awake i dream about you and the life we would have.............. iam sorry for all that time wen i was rude with you but trust me i don't want to do that to you but sometimes life becomes so complex ,so hard , that i loose my mind....and i loose it on you ,may be because i know even wen iam at my worst you will still love me no less , you will still have your arms open and welcoming me ,its your love that has made me act like a spoilt kid and i have begun enjoying all this pampering so much so that now i have started creating fictional situations to get all that attention of yours................but baby i have decided not to do it ny more because i myself cant relate to the person i have become lately , i dont want to create situations of tension , unhappiness between us , i dont want it coz i dont want you to be sad even for the fractions of seconds when we talk ............for every moment that we have means a lot and i dont wana loose it................. you have been always there for me ,you have always loved me even wen i have deserved it da least...................... i love you baby ,and i know our life is as perfect as it can get and i do'nt need to complicate it for no reason.........all i know is i have always loved you , i love u and i will always do...............................

everytime i think of you ,i feel how blessed iam,
how beautiful you have made my life , how complete have i become after knowing you, derz something about you that tells me you will always love me , even when the tough times will come ill overcome it because the strenght of our love is far stronger than the difficulties of life.............

...I FEEL pity for YOU..........

This is a story about a gal, who thinks she has all that one should have, she feels she is the best ,she thinks she is someone everyone would want to be but nobody can........ : )
But ironically that is wat she thinks & no one believes... afterall who would want to be a sad , murky and dead .............gal, when i look at you i feel pity because to me your live appears to be as dead and meaningless as it can get....... all your life you have RUN after materialistic things, all your life you have tried to make the life of others as hard and bad as possible, all your life you have been trying to be who you are not.................. sadly you have even forgotten to laugh with joy, even forgotten how to be happy ..... you have so much of negativity around you that people who happens to come around you also becomes unhappy and as dead as you are.............you do'nt even realize how selfish, how insecure you are...yes you are insecure of lot many things in your life may be because da little things that you have wont be with you for long and you know this harsh reality, these people wont be with you because they know one day you can back stab them and afterall why would anyone want to be with a creepy person like you..........you have never respected and cherished the love you had, never cared about other's feelings , you have made relationships to serve your bad intentions and one day all this will come back to you.....24*7 you think of how to make the life of others unhappy.............. can't you find a better reason to live BITCH ??????? OR THIS IS THE ONLY REASON YOU LIVING FOR??????? wats your life , a life with no life, no happiness .......... you know how sad and unhappy you are from within and how weak you are but still you keep pretending and fake it all...................... i feel pity because one day you will loose eveything and just you and your useless pride will be left, with this kind of wrong attitude you will probably have everthing that doesn't reaaly matter and and you will surely loose everything that actually do ............... i feel sorry for you,looking at your life my heart becomes heavy , AFTERALL how can someone live a life like yours....its so SAD , SO DEPRESSING......... THINK ABOUT IT...........slow down for a while and put that mask away for everyone know that YOU ARE NOT WAT YOU SHOW AND WAT YOU ARE IS EVEN WORSE THEN THAT.........................GET A LIFE, get a better purpose to live.......else who would bother to care even if you die..........because you are already so dead and rotten............

and last but not da least : DO'NT SHOW ME ATTITUDE BITCH , I GOT MORE THaN YOU....................

..If I HaVE tO.....

If I have to leave this world,
I want to leave it in your arms,

If I have to see you walk away,

I would want you to shut my eyes,

If I have to smile,

I would want to have you by my side,

If I want to cry,

I would want you holding my tears,

If I have to dance,

I want you close to my heart,

If I have to live,

I want you forever in my life...

for I love you so much that there is nothing,

I want to do if I do'nt have you..............

..THe moMENT HaS CoMe........

The moment has come when we will be together forever, just in a little while things will happen which once were just like dreams, dreams we wished would turn into reality and would come true ,and here they are, right in front of us....everything is exactly the way we wanted it to be........ but iam little nervous at the same time, so many thoughts are running in my mind.........i can't believe that it is actually happening......iam loving this feeling, the thought that we will be together is making me insane...its like the thing that I ever wanted so badly is there for me and I didn't have to struggle to get it........may be thats what God has planned for me, may be that was destined to happen.......................WATEVER it may be all i know is Iam happy ,you are happy and our family is happy................... love u baby!!!!! mmuahh

..fOR mY sPeCIal oNeS........

OOps! am i actually talking about the ones...can u guess? chalo leave it , i will tell you who am i talking about...well its none other then my" friends", they have been my strength when the time was not right and when i had no one else to share my deepest of feelings.......i have had the best of times with them.....we have cried together, we have laughed ,we have lived our life like a "celebration"................ its hard to put everything in words because its the matter of emotions which are best expressed when felt.............time has strengthen our relation... time has taught me how complete my life is because of them...i love u all not because u have always been there but because even when we were far i always had u guys..dats the power of our friendship...wat can be more beautiful then this , for this is also a form of love and love is always pure, beautiful and sweet, and if its not it just can't be love...............love also means having arguements, sometimes cold ones and sometimes steamy ones, but then it never means walking away and leaving. All it means is that i can be myself when IAM around my loved ones, so i say what i want to, say what i feel and not care about anything,for they never judge ,nor evaluate what i say because they know me ,the real me.....they know that we are friends not because we have so much in common but because we " respect the differences "that we have ...... its not about putting and forcing ones ideas ,its like giving the next person the liberty and freedom to think how one wants to and not how one should and how we want them to............................most of the relations that sustain ,don't sustain because the people involved are similiar in terms of their thinking but because they never give up on each other despite the "odds"......... so respect each other ,respect the individuality ,for everyone is unique in its own way and nobody wants to loose this uniqueness and become "THE SAME".....................

........HAs bEEn a LITTLe loNg...........

How do i start , emm don't really knoe that but what i know for sure is that it has been a little long since i wrote something for my blog...... what can be the reason ? well to start up with, figuring out why i didn't write is quite easy ..all i know is i wasnt having something concrete ,something solid to talk about and may be right now also i may not be having but all i know is that i still wanna write....sTupid isn't it? but thats what drives me, i don't have to be wise to do things that i love, all that i need is the passion....life becomes easy when we look at things as they are and not complicating everything that we see around us.......its not the world that has become complex,its the thoughts that runs in the minds of millions of us.........we have started thinking so much that the time has come when we have even forgotten what exactly we were meant to think about...... what are we rushing for? what is that we are continuously chasing? if we pause for a moment we will find that everything is just right here, it has been always right HERE but we were too blind to see...for a couple of seconds lets be in the moment, the present moment, where everything is perfect, everything is exactly the way it should have been...doesn't the very thought calms us down.....its not because it made things perfect its because for a moment we were at peace with ourselves ,we were not rushing.............................................to be happy its not important to have what everybody else may desire, to be happy its important to be at peace with oneself...................

God bless us all !!!