...i have been....

i have been alone,
i have been there for so long,
i have seen the oceanz ,
seen the rains and seen the darkness of my life ,
with all that iam stilll here wanting to live this life....da shades of grey and white are stories of yesteryears...today i want to forget it all and start a new day with you.....its only for you that i have started loving the world around , loving that love still stay and hey baby you are mine and thats all i need to be fine.....nothing tastes like your lips, nothing feels like your touch, its you baby i wana be with...........

..waht is it ????

what is it that will make sure that i live and live happily as long as iam there?why is it so hard to say it in one go? is it because we aint sure or is it one thing is just "not enough"....wahtever might be the case but one thing is true for sure and that is we ourself don't know waht we want and wat exactly we need.......haven't we complicated our lifes for no substancial reason, haven't we lost the track of all those little things which do have the potential to make anyone happy, haven't we lost on " the real me" ......... we have mixed the two roles so much that they have lost their identity & individuality......today my real self looks almost the twin of my projection or rather i should say its my projection that has overshadowed the 'real me' .. i have forgot to understand that they are different entities ......isn't that so ironic that i have lost "who Am I "just to become " what am i"? when it should have been the other way round................................... who am I & wat am I should have been blended perfectly to make them look alike, make them look like "superimposable images of each other ".... But today wat am I has been more dominant then who am I, so much so that we have almost forgotten our "real self".......there is nothing we can relate yet we think its ok as long as iam visible .......... noboby cares to answer who they want want to be ,all that they are worried about is what they want to be ................ success doesn't come by giving up wat matters but it comes when you move ahead with everthing that actually matters............ purpose of existence have changed into just "being there".................

will continue with the same topic..till den keep : )

.......your love.........

life has become more beautiful because of the colors added by you,
the shades of DARKNESS have almost vanished, the sad notes are no longer playing in my mind, your love has tunned me with rythum and dance of life,
iam no longer sitting in dark ,
hiding away from my own self,
now i sleep to see the bright light and stare at the moonlight,
iam not scared of the waves and the winds,
i now face the water to experience the other side,
now that i know you are there with me
i feel i have found the real reason to smile........

...WalKing iN tHe Rain.......

when i walk in the rain, i can feel the the water, i can smell the soil,in that moment of time i realize how far have i come,

how far i have been from myself,those stupid things we used to do when we were kids , now are the things of past,why have i grown so fast to have lost the meaning of innocent pride.....

those days were so different, we could wake up to careless mornings,we could laugh because of little things.... now its all the way so different...the days are no longer peaceful, the nights are now sleepless...the dreams that i had once dreamt have changed into something UNachievable..........why have the things changed so fast or is it me who have not catch with time...is it me or is it the world that is not fine.................can't the things be as they used to be then? or are the things still same and its me who has changed...........i think its the price you pay to have become little wise .....................

...The dreamz are but dreamz..........

Sometimes in life we want things so badly but then something happens and you no longer want that thing...why that happens i still don't know but thats how it happens.......... sometimes i feel we shouldnt want something so much so dat if we dont get it we feel heart broken , rather shouldn't expect anything from anyone, it hurts if your expectations never turn into the kind of reality you wanted................. because someone failed you,you will be sad ? whats the point of being sad ,its not reason worth being sad ......so one should expect but from only oneself, it wont really hurt that much ,it will surely hurt far less then the pain of being dissappointed by others.... no expectations, no sadness...........thats the way to live a happy life : )

...I KnoW hOw stupid Iam........

I know how stupid i have been acting lately , i know i have been a very different person altogether , i know for no good reason i have been complicating things.....why i been doing all this ? thats something that i have failed to understand but despite all these odds i wanna tell you that i have loved you and missed you every moment of that crazy time..... its only you and you i think of , even when iam awake i dream about you and the life we would have.............. iam sorry for all that time wen i was rude with you but trust me i don't want to do that to you but sometimes life becomes so complex ,so hard , that i loose my mind....and i loose it on you ,may be because i know even wen iam at my worst you will still love me no less , you will still have your arms open and welcoming me ,its your love that has made me act like a spoilt kid and i have begun enjoying all this pampering so much so that now i have started creating fictional situations to get all that attention of yours................but baby i have decided not to do it ny more because i myself cant relate to the person i have become lately , i dont want to create situations of tension , unhappiness between us , i dont want it coz i dont want you to be sad even for the fractions of seconds when we talk ............for every moment that we have means a lot and i dont wana loose it................. you have been always there for me ,you have always loved me even wen i have deserved it da least...................... i love you baby ,and i know our life is as perfect as it can get and i do'nt need to complicate it for no reason.........all i know is i have always loved you , i love u and i will always do...............................

everytime i think of you ,i feel how blessed iam,
how beautiful you have made my life , how complete have i become after knowing you, derz something about you that tells me you will always love me , even when the tough times will come ill overcome it because the strenght of our love is far stronger than the difficulties of life.............

...I FEEL pity for YOU..........

This is a story about a gal, who thinks she has all that one should have, she feels she is the best ,she thinks she is someone everyone would want to be but nobody can........ : )
But ironically that is wat she thinks & no one believes... afterall who would want to be a sad , murky and dead .............gal, when i look at you i feel pity because to me your live appears to be as dead and meaningless as it can get....... all your life you have RUN after materialistic things, all your life you have tried to make the life of others as hard and bad as possible, all your life you have been trying to be who you are not.................. sadly you have even forgotten to laugh with joy, even forgotten how to be happy ..... you have so much of negativity around you that people who happens to come around you also becomes unhappy and as dead as you are.............you do'nt even realize how selfish, how insecure you are...yes you are insecure of lot many things in your life may be because da little things that you have wont be with you for long and you know this harsh reality, these people wont be with you because they know one day you can back stab them and afterall why would anyone want to be with a creepy person like you..........you have never respected and cherished the love you had, never cared about other's feelings , you have made relationships to serve your bad intentions and one day all this will come back to you.....24*7 you think of how to make the life of others unhappy.............. can't you find a better reason to live BITCH ??????? OR THIS IS THE ONLY REASON YOU LIVING FOR??????? wats your life , a life with no life, no happiness .......... you know how sad and unhappy you are from within and how weak you are but still you keep pretending and fake it all...................... i feel pity because one day you will loose eveything and just you and your useless pride will be left, with this kind of wrong attitude you will probably have everthing that doesn't reaaly matter and and you will surely loose everything that actually do ............... i feel sorry for you,looking at your life my heart becomes heavy , AFTERALL how can someone live a life like yours....its so SAD , SO DEPRESSING......... THINK ABOUT IT...........slow down for a while and put that mask away for everyone know that YOU ARE NOT WAT YOU SHOW AND WAT YOU ARE IS EVEN WORSE THEN THAT.........................GET A LIFE, get a better purpose to live.......else who would bother to care even if you die..........because you are already so dead and rotten............

and last but not da least : DO'NT SHOW ME ATTITUDE BITCH , I GOT MORE THaN YOU....................